I am at that point in my life:
 having pursued a spiritual path and left it
 having dealt with an emotional issue at home
 having read much, listened much and do not
  feel the need to follow or do anything 
  about anything anymore

I am standing at that point in time when:
 conspiracy theories abound
 end world scenarios get bounced around
 yet care not that I make it or not
 as this debate of those who choose to will make it
  is bandied around by new agers
 while teachers say those who have progressed will
  make it but many won't
 which in my mind has caused a cleavage that
  should not be in spiritual eyes

I no longer care it would seem but really now?
It would be more accurate to say I no longer fear
 though fear is a natural human emotion
I have stringed along with Teachers and Gurus
In books or in form, eager and willing to change,
 to transmute, transform ... 
I have not moved from ground zero!

I let go of all these. I take my stand
I face ALL as I AM; it does not matter one way
 or another. 
I don't have to perform for God or the Universe. 

TAKE ME AS I AM !!!!!!!

Ground zero hhm?
Outward movement is not how Spirit Speaks
There is nowhere to go, nothing to achieve.
All change is inner change
Of My attitude to the outer me - detachment!
Am I cleaving to the i and its conundrums
It seems so; this tirade is a symptom
Not liberated from the outer 
It would seem more attached to it rather
What a pity; the very idea of spiritual growth
is aborted when the outer is confused with the Inner. 
So learn to let go and not look to outward manifestations
But onward go - discriminate, waste not time in goings on
in the world which is plenty and never ending
but seek to end your own attachment to the outer self and world.
So let go let go let go.
Of things, of opinions, of judgements, 
Of bonds, of fruits of labours done, 
Of spiritual growth and rewards.
The result is "I" unencumbered by life. 

 

Mastery

Mastery of Emotions is needed to make it through 
the second initiation. 
Use the mind to master the emotions. 
Experientially I know emotions don't change anything.

Mastery of Mind is needed to make it through 
the third inititation.
Have no opinions of anything or anyone and the mind 
will be still.
Let go of mental meanderings and focus on one 
subject, study, talent, pastime.

There is a war they say for the minds of men. 
The mind uses its side-kick, the emotions to ensnare one 
in its complicities
Together the duo can also be referred to as the desire mind 
or kama manas.
Entangled one tangoes to the beat of the opinionated mind 
coupled with seething emotions creating the downward drag 
that pulls one deeper into the tentacles of matter.

Let the initiate beware !!