Ok so I stop thinking. I face the ocean. I have to swim. I am afraid of water. But I have to swim. Will I not feel fear. Do we only think fear? Not feel fear? Ok rewind backwards to the beginning of Time. I have no fear. I do not think. I have yet not experienced physical life. I face the ocean. I cannot swim. I do not know what the ocean is. I do not know to fear. I dive in. I almost die. I feel deep panic as my body swallows water into my lungs and my muscles cramp. The feeling is desperation. The body tries to fight to survive - primal primitive urge. The waves wash me ashore gasping and gagging just before I drown. I struggle for awhile just to breathe. I then get up and stagger away, away from that that ocean thing that caused me such pain and panic and I begin to to to fear... to know fear. So does not physical life beget fear?
Ok. I let go of fear. My Master says go plunge over that cliff if you want to become my chela. I want so much to be his student. I go plunge over the cliff. If I die immediately fear will not figure too strongly in that experience. If I do not die, but become disabled (without medical aid of any sort) and what that means then fear will set in the next time I look at a cliff. So fear is endemic to human life. How does one overcome fear? The question remains unanswered.
Found this ... speaks a thousand words and helps one get past the
verbosity in these matters...
Bethany Hamilton, surfer who lost her arm to a tiger shark continues to surf, got married and had a child. Now this does happen with one's physical body and one is engulfed in fear. One can let fear imprison us forever or learn courage.
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