Musings

We are on a constant search for meaning... of life.
We think we have found our niche and that comes undone.
We see people walking on the road and wonder what
life means to them. Are they happy with life?
Do they even want to know the whys and wherefores?
Can life be just simple in not knowing?
Why do we feel the pain and urge to know something higher?
What is the meaning of life?

So many of us are on that point of life
where we say we just have to take one day at a time.
That sharp point on which we do not sit easy.
How do we understand our vulnerability,
our dis-ease, our just wanting out! our mortality?
All spiritual explanations come undone when the teacher
departs ... to where? inner realms which are a re-hash of this
outer realm? From which one gets re-cycled again and again.

What is the meaning - purpose of life? Why the feeling of
being trapped by circumstances, people .... and if we flee them
we are still confronted by life itself taking its toll on our bodies
through aging, disease. .. only for us to realize that we need
people. We can't live with them (leave alone ourselves!), we
can't live without them.

Do we have to run to caves and mountains?
As many did in the past?
And achieved what?
Bliss? While still straddled with the physical body -
untended, causing moral outrage for the commoner.
Is this what enlightenment has to be like?
Is this the culmination of a life in spiritual pursuit?
Is this what illumination and spiritualization is all about?

Is it best to just go through life letting go of all aspirations,
dreams, yearnings. Just trudge through the days of life
earning a living, being idle is torture, doing something takes
the edge off the pain in a life otherwise spent idling in confusing
thoughts of this and that path and right now - it seems there are
paths galore! Am I unique in wanting out? NO! Everyone is
seeking, there are as many paths as there are seekers ... religions,
charlatans, gurus and swamis and teachers and way pointers, yet
nothing substantial -they say you have to do the work. Then comes
something new - you are selfish if you do not work for humanity.
A focus divided - what better way to keep us grounded in this
reality. Without single pointed effort one can never achieve
anything. If one has to think of the whole of humanity when one
can hardly help oneself, leave alone the task of living life, which
diverts our attention from single-pointed application on self
transformation.